Am i a freak? and should i feel this way?

Alright let me explain my Names Nicole,my whole life i've been Isolated,abandoned,A hermit,Well recently i been feeling Angry,and Sad,right now in my curren't state,I'm having growing pains,I'm kept inside,I can't talk to my friends,I don't have a phone,(Not allowed to) I'm over heating,I'm Eating like 10-12 times a day,having poor hygene,and Alot more,An abnormal thing about me is everyday i wake up i get Angry at myself and injure me,What's causing this extreme Anger? is it because i'm isolated,lonely? What is it! Also i have a Weird obsession with Masturbating,i touch myself to much,its gotten outta hand,my main touching spot is my breasts,Why can't i keep my hands off of them? I'm a C36 and I'm 14 is that really something to be all touchy feely about? What's wrong with me? Am i freakishly Abnormal? Oh my daily skedule is Wake up,Eat Alot,use computer all day then go to Sleep,i do the exact same thing over and over because i have no choice,Can someone please help me! before i lose it.